Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Personal Psychological Interactions

I been going over some things, and I should post this information as well. Since the validation of an abductee requires a quick psychological check, I thought to share the following information as well as part of my Profile Case.

Child Behavioral Psychologist
I was taken to a psychologist, becuase at that time when a child experiencing a divorce, the court ordered/suggested that the child be monitored. This would have occurred at 3 to 4 years of age.
I remember that the individuals who monitored my brother and I was put off by the fact that I knew they were behind a window in the playroom and would stare at them until they came in and asked how come I wasn't play with the toys. I remember saying, "cause your looking at me from over there". After a few sessions, the psychologists did the standard ESP test as I was shown the cards with the star, triangle, circle, and cross.
I know I did mention them once, but for some reason I didn't want to talk about it.
My brother did something bad, in which we never went back there again.

Psychologist/Councilor
Around age 6 for a few months after my father attempted to kill me, it was suggested again that I be taken to a professional to help deal with the trauma. Again, this really did not accomplish anything other than talking about myself. I was asked about friends at school, what did I like, what my nightmares where about, etc.
I mentioned the initial even at age three. It was thought that due to my fathers mistreatment, that I created a fantasy I could cope with involving "spaceman" to deal with the issue of divorce and traumatic separation from my mother. The nightmares were a manifestation of the fear that I would be forced to encounter my father again. They believed also that would explain my trust issues and social interactions with those own my own age group. Their suggestion was to involve me in social activities such as sports.

School Councilor: High School
My mother, to have something to talk about with her friends, though it would be good for me to visit the councilor.The relationship with my mother is complex, and my family situation was more so. I was being raised in a household with my aunt and my grandmother, yet with ties to my mother. The councilor was a very nice woman. She quickly realized two things 1) I didn't need counseling, as I was described "A responsible young man with a good head, but the weight of the world on his shoulders, 2) I needed stress relief more than anything else becuase my family was very dysfunctional. My mother was not pleased to here that. 

Marriage-Family, Therapist
When I was a late Teenager, my mother re-married and had the chance to start over with a wonderful man who she loved when I was younger. However, she wanted her ideal family. She attempted to bring me back into the fold, deal with my younger brother, and this wonderful guy. It was a mish-mash of three separate groups. The therapist identified myself and my mother being the two most assertive members, my young brother as an aggressor, and her new husband as a passive entity. After a few weeks we stopped since it was ineffective. There was so many issues of control, personal baggage, that a cohesive family unit was not feasible. So they went their way and I stayed with my grandmother/aunt.

Mental Hospital
At age 19 I was tricked into a mental hospital out of "revenge" by my own mother. A few months earlier she was committed after a "breakdown". My aunt and I had to commit her. Almost a year after her release she attempted to have me committed when I was going through a rather stress/emotional time in my life. Since I didn't confide in anyone and had my own issues I dealt with and uncertainty of things she felt "It would be responsible of her to take me to see someone". She drove me straight up to the hospital and said "she was afraid I would kill myself". Since I was calm and rather apathetic, they decided to have an evaluation with me (aka talk...cause my mother was not very convincing and they remembered). In short I basically told them my life story (omitted the abductions, ghosts, and my homosexuality) and how I was feeling....was uncertain as to where life was going and why I have SUCH a Dysfunctional family and if it was just me. The evaluator told me that they were glad that I was such an aware individual and I rational knew what was going on, however they felt I was a danger to myself....and I quote "I am surprised you haven't committed suicide! Most people do you know". They gave me a choice... either I commit myself and was able to sign myself out after a period of days or forcibly commit me as my parent wanted me to. I was rational so... I signed myself in under DURAS.

So what doe all this data we have know have to do with things. Well... one is shows that I am self aware and have recall. That I am considering the possibility of the Psychologist/Counselor diagnosis around age 6.
I do have "daddy" and "abandonment" issues. I have resolved them over the years back then. Looking back the assessment at that time was rational, but Invalid. Although I have a psychological profile at that time that would lead one to believe the analysis...they did not have the data I have collected over the years as a resource (namely my family history, witness accounts "family and non-related" and overall documentation on the subject matter). I do have issues, but no one is a perfect or a model individual... in which we can truly measure a person to. However, we have morals and an ethics that help guide our lives... and I believe that I do my best to live by them and continue to grow both spiritually and intellectually as time passes on.

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Odd Occurance

Date: January 10, 2012
Type: None
Location: Los Angeles, CA
Time of Incidents: 12:44am and 3:23am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 8:00pm
State of Mind Before: Stress, Physically Exhausted
State of Mind After: Confused
Odd occurrences before: None
Odd occurrences after: None
Odd occurrences after: None
Possible Influential Factors: "Insidious Movie", Work Stress, Personal Stress, Memories

As from my blogs I have indicated that events have basically tapered off and things are quiet. Over the weekend though I watched the movie Insidious and thought about a topic for the Blog. So far been having a normal day except for personal and work-related stresses. Yesterday was just exhausted and went to be very early and did not do my usual precautions before I sleep. My sleep was sort of fitful.

Around 12:44am I woke up startled. I don't know why but I looked at the clock and just tried to go back to sleep. As I was going to sleep I started going over a conversation in my head. I was being asked about a friend I recently became acquainted with. I was being asked, who he was, where he lived, what did the house look like, how many rooms, what was the layout of the house, the occupants, their family history, etc...which I seemed to just responded with.

Around 3:23am I woke up again. This time "I remember" going into my aunt's room and asking. "Did Anything happen?" She replied "No. Why?". I said, "They are back, but I can't remember anything... and began to cry. I was a little confused by this, but didn't seem to care and went back to sleep.

 However at 6:00am I woke up and was like "What the????" Remembering I woke up at 12:44 and 3:23.
 I felt unnerved, but stayed in my bed thinking about the stress at work and in my personal life... which lasted until 7:15am. As usual I asked my aunt if anything odd occurred and she said no.

So what was this? An odd series of dreams or something new that is being used on me?

MUFON


MUFON was founded in 1969, and is a non-profit organization that has dedicated itself to the study of the UFO phenomenon. The acronym stands for Mutual UFO Network. The organization is headed by various educated individuals from many fields of study. Researchers and volunteers help gather information which they compile into their own database do help validate claims of sightings and abductions.

They also have chapters across the United States and overseas, since the phenomena  is cross-cultural and global. Various chapters, such as MUFON LA, can be found in most major cities, and can be a resource for individuals who wish to study or those who have experienced an encounter. They also have a newsletter you can subscribe, and attend events that range from seminars to symposiums, and have a tracker which show the latest activity.

Someone posed a reply to one of my blog postings, which I would like to address openly:

1) "Have you contacted MUFON? They can send an investigator out".

I have been to their website, looked the local chapter, and I found it to be something that I found to be lacking.Although the website and their organizations reputes to be professional.... I am concerned with my confidential information. I have no qualms dealing with a certified doctor, psychologist, or other verified professional.... but when it comes to non-profit and volunteer groups I am skeptical. I assume that MUFON members have already come across my blog as many people search the net.... and authors and researchers likewise may have come across my postings. My information is out there as detailed as possible. So there is nothing I believe that a researcher from MUFON can do for me. I for myself have a college degree in a scientific field as well as training in counseling. I have applied the scientific method, as although I am an individual who is experiencing the phenomena, I am being as objective as possible.

2) So what about me being a benefit to them?

MUFON's dedication and original purpose is to the UFO's or as they would like to term "UFOLOGY". I am not here to discuss necessarily the possibility/probability of the existence of spaceships. Engineers and Physicists have been already exploring that angle for years. Although the groups has gone into the area of "Alien Contact", that is still debatable as we have reports of various types of beings being encountered.
 The field involves psychology, sociology, and the medical sciences. Currently most groups tend to jumble everyone into one group, which I disagree with as I believe different "visitors" have their own unique agendas and are aware of our daily going ons. Last thing I would want is to have another group of visitors. Also I feel that by blogging it allows me to a source that has no connections to orginzations that wish to promote a certain agenda.

In closing, MUFON, is a great source for individuals. It is just something I feel, especially the Local chapter, I have no interest with.
 

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Status Update

Time: January 1 2012 (Gregorian Calendar), 12 Month of 4707 (Chinese).

Location: Los Angeles, Ca
Events: None.
Possible Factors: 2012, Blog

For the past few months the activity of the "greys" have lessened. They have no longer obviously intruded upon the residence for the past few months. It is one of the quiet times were they are no longer observing us. This has happened in the past before we they ignore of for a number of weeks, months, or a few years.

In all honesty I hope that this is the case. Perhaps they have being monitoring my blog? Or I have been rather difficult as a subject being self aware? Or perhaps that the events predicted in 2012 (if you subscribed to this) has some influence?

However just becuase they are gone, my research still goes forward for there are many others who are victimized and traumatized by these beings. Research, understanding, and counseling is still needed and I hope my research and experiences can helps other or ignite some answers to these events.

Gravity Fluctuations & Missing Time


Missing time, abductions, and the probability of an events that takes hours but done in minutes can be explained away with the Theory of Gravitational Time Dilation. Our research into physics over the past hundred years have bought out new and recovered theories regarding space and time. One of the components to the alien abduction phenomena is missing time.

"Missing Time" is a state in which some abductees report to have. Basically it is a period of unknown time, in which some activity/event has occurred but cannot be readily recalled. Most believe that this is simply the individual inability to remember events during that "time period" becuase of physical or psychological mechanism (short term memory loss, sleep disorder, hypnotic interference, etc). However, there is other type of missing time in which relative time is either lengthened in or shortened in which the individual vividly recall events that have occurred. These cases is where outside observers can no longer locate and individual during that time period, but the individual is fully aware that they have not changed position.

With abductions, right before the initial appearance of these and afterwords, there are some odd phenomena associated with them. Sometime clocks can be off, sound does not travel properly, or things behave physicals strange (water not flowing, electricity not working, vision blurred). What is interesting is that the events of the abduction seem impossible given the time period allowed... abducting an individual and conducting interactions and then placing the abductee back. How can all this occur within just a few minutes or hours?

Gravitational Time Dilation may have occurred. A localized gravitational change could have initiated in order to produce the abduction experience. An increase of gravity would initiate an incremental increase of the flow of relative time. An decrease of gravity would initiate an incremental decrease of the flow of relative time.
So is it possible that the mechanism that these visitors use for travel through space can also be used to affect localized relative time? If an alien ship with an active engine using FTL technology that manipulate gravity can cause an secondary effect of manipulating the localized time. Since it is using the engine to create a field of low gravity it would cause time to slow down for individuals within the area.

The theory of Gravitational Time Dilation was first described by Albert Einstein. Which tries to explain why time passes at different rate when effected by gravity. The theory has been proven with the use atomic clocks that have been placed at different altitudes that have been synchronized. When checked at a period further down, these clocks have become out of sync illustrating that gravity had  a potential effect on the passage of time.