Thursday, August 29, 2013

The Lost Demon


As explained in previous posts I met an individual who claims to be merged with a demon.The individual seems very credible and upon cursory evaluation, appears to be linked the supernatural.

The individual is 5'10, 145lbs, Black Hair, Brown Eyes, Fair Caucasian Male. Born Under the sign of the Twins, in the Year of the Water Monkey. He was born to the hills of the West Wind of the Flowery Land.
The first man claims that at age 5 he was merged with an entity known as the "black cat", he remembers it first emerged within him when a group of individuals ganged up upon him. He recalls a fight and blood, as well as remembering animals turning on him.

It is said that he was a pure innocent, a "mischievous person", though. He lived a hard life, and apparently committed a grave action toward a his blood. He himself was trapped for a period of time in the Demon World. He claims that he was passed down from various demons as they used them for their torments.  

Physically he was in bad health from blood infection to cartilage issues. At his present age he seems to be stable. 

The Demon claims to be have been born and raised  by cats. They protected him and raised them as their own. In the end it betrayed its family and killed them all, as it beleive they were evil. The demon, who true name is that of a reveling berserker, says he was summoned during a time when the five your old boy needed him. It had called out in pain and sorrow and it answered. It said that the individual was pure of heart, powerful and it took residence within him. There were some problems....as they both were merging.

Today the individual and the demon are present, with the demon being mostly dominant. Besides the main demon, there is a host of others five others: Vulpus-Vulpus-Terra-Hydra-Muchacha.These seems to be other spirits beside the main one, who exert their influence from time to time.

Why I think he is possessed:
-Hidden Knowledge
-Personalities
-Strength
-Physical Ailments
-Body Spasms

Although I was introduced to the individual first, the demon has had it's own interest in me. I have seen that it is very dominant. Like most of its kind it seeks to spread its influence, and shares many of the traits known with demons. It claims to be all powerful, a friend, it attempts to seduce, wants to bond willingly through pacts, etc.

Precautions and Involvement.
The reason why I involved myself with this individual is because I am seeking answers concerning "them". Interaction with this person(s) have verified that "them" and demons are two separate entities. Furthermore its words describing them kept referring to them as "ancient" and the archons. The individual, possibly partially aware of the Demons interaction with me repeated this as new info. "They" were not of this earth or from the Demon Realm. In addition the demon has kept trying to bind me within a pact, as it invite and entreats offerings. The demon already claims a coven and seeks to increase it.

I have taken precautions, there effective level tells they are in place and in order. Although I feel that these individuals are lost, there paths has been shown to me as well as the true names. I have seen the sigils revealed in Malachim, as the Chained Martyr.  
 
Ironically there is another individual, who I know that is the polar opposite. From the Land of Lakes, he is a Rabbit  two cycles from me. He is plagued by "them" but they appear as Archons. Why have these two extreme appeared? Why does the demon confirm the Archons? Why is there a Rabbit present as well? 


Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Three Men and a connection to the Land of Many Lakes

Date: August 2013
Type: CE3/Occult
Location: Los Angeles, CA
Time of Incidents: 3:30am (Me, Aunt)/8:30am (me)
Attempted Time of Sleep: 8:30 am (Me)/1:30am (Aunt)
State of Mind Before: Very Depressed, Tired, Very Unhappy, Very Lonely (Me)/Angry (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Very Depressed, Tired, Very Unhappy, Very Lonely (Me)/Sad, Scarred (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Supernatural Occurrences, Insomnia (Me)
Odd occurrences after: None.
Possible Influential Factors:Discussions with people

Over the past week I have mentioned my odd experiences and the "messages" from them. Their threat to me is something I do not like. Although I do my best to remain as rational as possible, I sadly still have basic human emotions.
Last night as I was up, writing to an associate of mine when something odd happened. From my end of things I was scared because "they" were here and I hoped they would not bother me as I was on the computer. I thought this was just me being paranoid. I heard a conversation going in in my aunts room between three men. However, I did not think anything of it as I thought perhaps she was just simply watching TV.
This morning when I did try to lay down around 8:30am, I thought something(s) came into the room. I tried to close my eyes and concentrate "go away". However.. it was communicated "You think the day will keep us from coming, You are mistaken". I momentarily blacked out and something was touching the back of my head. It promised if I cooperated it would give me what I wanted most I didn't answer, but I managed to rouse myself out and just looked around. It had been like a 15 minutes since I put my head down. I didn't go back to sleep and just did my chores.
This afternoon I was helping my aunt get ready as I was taking her to the movies and a dinner. She mentioned quickly that she thought I was "them" again when I walked in on her. I asked her what she meant and she played her game as usual, until finally she told me what had happened. She said around 3:30am she was awoken by people talking in the room. It was three people, she could only make out one tall humanoid like figure, but she knows there was more.
However, this experience is off and not the usual M.O. They are usually not vocal. This happens with spirits, but I am not sure what this is. I will have to ponder more and most likely have another sleepless night.
UPDATE
After some rest and meditation I have manned to recuperate. Another friend I have seems to have had an incident as well that night, we just correspond via e-mail. It seems that we had a coincidental occurrence.
The entities that appeared last night seem to follow his beings "M.O.".

Monday, August 26, 2013

Abnormal for an Abductee???


Reading through various post of other peoples experiences sometimes make me feel a pariah among most.
I do not know if it is because I am a Frequent Generational Abductee, I am a just different, or the faction/group abducting me has their own specific agenda. These common shared traits that many are experiences are things I do not share:

-Chosen
-Compulsion to Becoma A Vegetraian
-Cosmic Awarness
-Lower than Normal Body Temperature
-Sense of a Mission


Many people seem to believe that they have experience some sort of cosmic enlightenment. That these beings are friendly and are here as guide. They start to almost come to a greater spiritual awakening and new respect for all life. They believe that organic is the way to go and that eating another's flesh is not the way. They begin to see energy beings. They claim that they have a mission to be ambassadors for the coming arrivals and to prepare the way for humanities ascension to the brotherhood of light.

Most seem of these individuals seem aghast when I do not share their particular traits. Some even question if I am even experiencing a real abduction or having night terrors because of the absence of their "NEW FAITH" in my situation.

The commons I share are: 


Observational-History of Family UFO Experiences
-History of Family Abduction Experiences
-Synchronize or Sequential Clock Numbers (4:32, 3:21, 2:10, 4:44, 3:33, 2:22)
-Electronic Malfunction/Interference
-Abduction
-Balls of Lights
-Missing Time
-Tapping/Humming Noise
-Shadow/Hooded/Robe People
-Seeing a UFO
-Seeing Alien
-Seeing a Hybrid
-Paranormal activity

Psychological-Compulsion to study (various fields)
-Locking All Doors
-Sleep Against the Wall
-Difficulty Trusting
-Vigilant
-Abduction Memories
-ESP (Telepathy, Empathic, Precognitive, etc)
-Uncomfortable around Crowds
-Dissociative Disorder, Minor (Being different, Pariah)
-Depression
-Anxiety
-Uncomfortable Reflective Surface
-Higher IQ
-Pragmatism 

Physical-Sensation/Pains Behind Your Eye
-Physical Implant
-Cranium Sensations (Headaches/Tingling)
-Back/Neck Problems
-Soreness Upon Awakening
-Insomnia
-Unusual Marks
-Chemical Sensitivity (Aroma)
-Chemical Sensitivity (Ingestion)
-Light Sensitivity
-Sound Sensitivity
-Significant Medical Condition (Physical)

I tend to be pragmatic, and evaluate my surrounding and self. I question everything and and begin plotting for outcomes and probability factors. I do not like deluding myself, and I believe I see what I see by contrast and comparison. However, the majority of people I have encountered or most vocal seem to be hold that my pragmatism and fear, make me different and not a real abductee.

So is it just one group among the abductees pushing their experience upon us all? Is the way abductions happening are different now? Or are they write in saying my issues are all night terrors induced by the media and narrative of the phenomena (I highly doubt that one..since this was not as widely known when I was growing up)?.

Any case I will continue to report and monitor for as long as I can. 


Saturday, August 24, 2013

Dealing with Spirits and Energy Beings



Date: August 2013
Type: Occult
Location: Los Angeles, CA
Time of Incidents: N/A
Attempted Time of Sleep: N/A
State of Mind Before: Very Depressed, Tired, Very Unhappy, Very Lonely (Me)
State of Mind After: Leery, Sad
Odd occurrences before: Supernatural Occurrences, Shadow People, Alien Contact
Odd occurrences after: None.
Possible Influential Factors:Open Belief Systems


As mentioned earlier in a previous post I happened to have met an individual who claims to have a relationship with a host of other beings. He is credible in the sense that the supernatural activity around him is verifiable in our double blind conversations. He is very intriguing and has helped me confirm some suspicions about supernatural sensitivity versus the psychic intrusion by the "Greys". As I have theorized there are two access point in which the brain is being stimulated, which I am guessing can help in certain situations.
I briefly mentioned this in other posts.... but I believe in that it may be possible to strengthen our resolve against them if we can utilize some of the supernaturally sensitive areas of our brain to counteract their
manipulation of our thoughts and bodies.

Just as of note, the individual I am dealing with does have some distinct behaviors and mannerisms.There seems to be a shared memory, but conflicting/dominate personalities involved. There are definite personality changes and inflection in attitude, feeling, and speech as certain "energy" beings take charge. I have noted this in many such people who are touched by spirits or guides. We are definitely seeing things, the same images.... so that at least means that are awareness of each other is at least, working......
However, despite my interest in observation, I noticed a few personal quirks I am leery about. The entities involve seem to want to dominate... they present opportunities of "binding" through use of imagery, word, familiarity, or blood. So far I been as polite as possible in mine declinations and wording, careful not to get bound. In our discussion I am often re-assured that these binding are necessary and commonplace and have no "harmful" affects. The entity seems irritated by my refusals and bothered by my presence. It is in contrast so far to the person's view of me. Though the lures and binding are making me uncomfortable because I need to take extra care.

What is odd is the re-occurring theme when dealing with a supernatural entity. Its is uncomfortable around me and irritated. It don't know if it is because of who I am or what has been done to me by the "Greys". Such encounters in the past often remark "That I am already claimed" or "That something older is around me". I do not know what it means, but both benign and malign entities have murmured this. I am not sure what it means, but if Greys are energy beings.... and linked to the ancients like the Archons or Annunaki.. is this what them mean? Do they mean that? Do they mean I am part of that?

As things progress I will fill in on this branch of my exploration.

Friday, August 23, 2013

While I was out and Dreams and Warnings Escalate.

Date: August 20th, 2013
Type: CE3
Location: Los Angeles, CA
Time of Incidents: 6:00pm to 8:00pm
Attempted Time of Sleep: 11:30 am
State of Mind Before: Very Depressed, Tired, Very Unhappy, Very Lonely (Me)/Scared (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Very Depressed, Very Unhappy, Very Lonely (Me)/Scared (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Previous "Daymares"
Odd occurrences after: 4:30 am movement in the hallway and scratching at my aunts door.
Possible Influential Factors: None

I went out for a walk between 4:00am and 5:20am, my aunt was awakened by noises in the spare room. She heard the door open, some walking along the smaller hallway and something touching her door war. She estimates this happening around 4:30am. This information was not made known to me until around 9:30 pm.

When I came back to the house I had a feeling of unease as if something had occurred. However when I walked in nothing unusual was amiss. I searched for more job listings had some oatmeal and then fell asleep around 11:30am.

I had a weird dream in which I was hired by a company, it was a combination of all the companies I worked for and had a variety of my fellow co-workers. I was happy to see most of them, since all the nice ones were there. The transitioned then to a get together, an anniversary dinner of some sorts. Chicken and Beef was being served, with a slice of lemon and some rosemary. My grandmother said something to me about getting some water. When I went to get water from the crystal pitchers I passed Princess Dianna and the Queen Elizabeth. They said the water was there's and I shant be allowed. However, I already had finished get our glasses. I simply ignored them. After giving the water to my grandmother, I was sent off on a road trip with two other guys, Jason F. and Enrico. We had a great time and were getting close, however some type of "Rage Virus" outbreak was occurring. Enrico had to get back home to see his family so we dropped him off, and Jason and I attempted to stay safe while driving the truck. Jason had an orange tabby with him in the truck as a pet. The cat seemed not to like me and would not let me approach Jason when the banging started on the truck. The scene then turned to a government facility, however everyone appeared as cartoony anthropomorphic mice. A storm was brewing and i was warmed that the only way to survive was to hide like them.

Like the previous day, I thought this dream was rather unusual. It was 7:00pm and I got up and washed my face in the bathroom. I was thinking back about the dream and how unusual it was. I also seemed to miss that there was some feelings with Jason and Enrico. I blamed it on the sheer isolation I feel, that in the sense of being truly unwanted. I felt part of a group and that these two individuals wanted me. I shook off the sentimentality.
It was 7:00pm and I got up and washed my face in the bathroom. I started thinking about the dream, however I caught myself that I just did this review before. I quickly made my way to my aunt's room.
I heard her crying and the door was open. She was lying on her bed, which she does not use anymore.
Although I noticed this inconsistency at that moment I was concerned about her. I asked her what was wrong, and she said "They came. And they were asking about you again. They wanted to hurt you because your not cooperating. They're gonna....", like last time I did not want to finish the sentence.


I started to scan her room, it was a reasonable facsimile except for some minor differences. It was a composite of her room as it has been over the past and present years. I looked up at the ceiling and noticed where the light fixture should be in the middle of the room, that there was a metal ventalation duct. It was shallow and very clean. I would say the shaft up their was at least 3 inches high, it was meant only to provide
air.

I was angry and challenged them. I thought "they are having trouble focusing on me, that's an advantage".
Apparently they were having trouble pinning things down and finding me. I yelled out up at the vent, "Why are you picking on her! If its me you want I am right here! Right now! Leave her alone! If its me you want I right here you assholes!!!". My aunt warned me and said "You shouldn't have done that becuase they will hear you". I was ready for a fight. At that moment some movement caught my eye in the hallway, my dog Patrick ran passed heading to the living room. Instantly my heart sank and was moved to tears, Patrick died about three years ago from weird blood disease that the vet did not comprehend. In my mind I broke, as I thought they got to him.......It was a taunt and one that destroyed what resolved I had mustered.

Soon the backdoor opened and there was bright lights that streamed in. It was at that moment my head was hit with an odd white noise, I started to become partially paralyzed. I manage to snag myself on the bed and quickly entangled my left hand as best as I could within the sheets as an anchor. Three being began walking from the light, they were short around 3'-4'. I knew what they were and who they were...... they started to approach the hallway. I began to try to make my way to the wall and the bed to wedge myself... but was having trouble moving. My back turned I could here them now coming into the room. At that moment I attempted something that may help me. I called out to someone who said they had the power to intercede.
Eventually they got to me and I was grabbed and blacked out as I was screaming a name.

I woke up. It was 8:00pm. I felt horrible after this dream. I turned on the computer and have been awaiting a response from a third party related to he name I called out. So far their has been no response or contact on his part. I am delaying in posting this even for a few days in order verify something. Later on my aunt let me know about the odd noise from the room and hallway. I did not mention to her the previous "daymares" or this occurrence. It is odd that if they came they missed me.... and yet in the dream... that was what was conveyed too. I don't intend to fall asleep anytime soon. I am running scared right now.... seems catnaps are in order until exhaustion kicks in.
 

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

More Odd Dreams and Warnings

Date: August 19th, 2013
Type: CE3
Location: Los Angeles, CA
Time of Incidents: 3:45pm to 4:30pm
Attempted Time of Sleep: 11:00 am
State of Mind Before: Very Depressed, Tired, Unhappy, Lonely (Me)/Scared (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Very Depressed, Unhappy, Lonely (Me)/Scared (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: None
Odd occurrences after: None
Possible Influential Factors: None


As I was asleep during afternoon, I tried to relax and attempted to feel "safe". Something which I think you are familiar with.... finding a place to just be comfortable and not on your guard. I was hoping that by switching to daytime I could find a buffer of peace.
I found a comfy spot on the floor in my room and cuddle up in a corner wedging myself in. It was warm so  had the fan on, and made sure that I had even more shade to block out the light that peers in. Soon I dozed off, hoping not to dream and to be free of thinking about several issues.
Around 4pm I started to dream. I woke up a few minutes before that and looked at the clock and it was 3:45pm. Then I woke up and looked at the clock and it was 3:45pm again. This time I attempted to get up but had trouble moving. I tried to relax, but eventually I just blacked out.I woke up again and looked at the clock and it was 3:45 pm, I went to the rest room and through some water on my face. I looked at the clock and it said 3:45pm..... I laid back down think that was weird.
A few minutes later I woke up at 4:04pm....... and I heard my aunt scream. I ran to her room and soon as I got to the door...... I woke up back in my room. Again I looked at the clock and it was 4:04pm. I was mad, and decided to lay there and fall asleep again.

This time I had a dream that I was in a mall with my aunt. It was frustrating for me because she kept complaining. The after making me wait she just took off on her own and disappeared. I asked the lady there if she knew where she went, but she said she just went "that way" which was out of the store. I went out and look and saw no sign of here. However I felt uneasy as there were several odd people staring amongst the people. I went back into the store and waited. After a few minutes my aunt showed up and asked me where I was. I told her I was waiting for her, but she said I was the one who left. I quickly wheeled her out and we left the mall asap.
Apparently we were driving in SFV along the north Santa Monica Mountains area. I was trying to avoid something. We eventually got to some fancy apartment complex/town homes. As I got out and made she she was in her chair, she again just left. As I looked up at the complex, it had many large windows and there were several "them" in side moving about. Before I could find my aunt and leave, the complex door open and I was forced inside.
I woke up in my room and it was 4:04pm..... I got up went to the bathroom and splashed water on my face. I didn't feel comfortable and was scarred. As I walked back to the to my spot I felt very groggy and collapsed on the floor. Again, I woke up in my room and it was 4:04pm, I couldn't move this time. Something said "Just because you rest during the day, doesn't mean you can be safe. We can always get to you. In the end you will be alone and then.......". A mixture of anger and sadness crept in and I began to wail and flail..... I didn't want that sentence to finish... what ever I did......I woke up again. It was 4:04 pm I had no idea if I was stuck in the dream or awake. I just curled up and cried myself back to sleep.

Monday, August 19, 2013

August Paranormal Activities Part 2

As explained in part 1, shadows have been sighted around the house lately. I been to depressed/determined to survive to pay attention and focus, although I am aware of the "odd" occurrences and sounds.

This month though I happened to meet an individual, who has a high degree of paranormal activity around him. Based upon my observations and discussions with him, I believe him to reputable. Also it allows me to compare and contrast between extra-terrestrial and supernatural influences. In confidence he has shared his experiences with me, and have have been forthcoming with my own. He believes that he might be responsible for the spike in activity. It is probable, but so far as I have encountered and dealt with him.... I think not.

One thing I noticed is that what supernatural knowledge I do have have and preparations, it has interacted with his. So far what has been focusing around him, has created an expected effect.... of wind around the house. Typical with two types of opposing energies, a vortex wind or strong breezes is created. So far since our discussion and interests, these have been happening especially when he has extended his influence to reach out to me. Likewise, he has been unable to identify certain supernatural agents around me and those that he has surmised might be the "greys",   behave and operate in a different manner. However, our conversations have determined that there are some spiritual beings that do bear a striking similarity to the greys. However, such beings have been discussed before when speaking about faeries or even mentioning Alister Crowley. What was also fascinating is that relating to him, it has showed the level of sensitivity and stimulation of portions of the brain are related to our experiences. Keep in mind this comparison has been made by my observation and experience:

Supernatural Experience
-Parietal Lobe
-Somatosensory Area
-Frontal Lobe
-Temporal Lobe

Extra-Terrestrial Experiences
-Occipital Lobe
-Cerabellum
-Wernicke's Area
-Temporal Lobe

In my experiences with "them", the areas in the back of my head often feel tingly. Which means that my perception and image recognition is being tampered with, language comprehension is being accessed, and coordination and balanced is being blocked. It seems an effort with immobilization and communication is being utilized here.

My experiences and my new associates have the top and frontal regions of the brains being stimulated. High level functions utilize and processing sensation felt through the skin, concerning density and temperature changes. The Frontal lobes seems to be stressed at processing this new type of data.

The odd thing is that the temporal lobe for both seems to be the focal points for the sensitivity, possible as it accesses short term memory. However, it seems to be an entry point... for outside influences as it is mostly like the region that first picks up any attempt at alteration or access. However, with continued exposure to such unusual activity the pathways formed the neural clusters become more and more familiar I believe, and harder to "erase".  

Sunday, August 18, 2013

August Paranormal Activities Part 1

Date: August 10th, and August 18th, 2013
Type: Paranormal, CE3
Location: Los Angeles, CA
Time of Incidents: 3:30am (8/10/13), and 12:45am (8/18/13)
Attempted Time of Sleep: N/A
State of Mind Before: Very Depressed, Tired, Unhappy, Lonely (Me)/Scared (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Very Depressed, Unhappy, Lonely (Me)/Scared, Depressed (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Meet new paranormally inclined group, movement in the attic 8/16/13.
Odd occurrences after: None.
Possible Influential Factors: Individuals from Paranormal Group

Earlier this month I happened to meet with my ex's friends. One of his friend's knows something of the paranormal, and happened to bring in a new friend who likewise is involved. So far, he and I have seen to have mutual interests and resonance. The individual is believed to be experience a high level of paranormal activity, based upon his history and through observation.

Although I am know stranger to shadowy people, my aunt has begin to see more again this month. I been per-occupied with finding a means to provide food on the table and survive, which at the rate which we are going may not be longer. I have already exhausted what saving I had, and the kindness of a few close individuals have kept us from disaster. I digress, but this is a major issue of stress for me.

My aunt I try to keep the burdens of the real world from effecting her "golden years". I promised to do my best to provide a home, safety, and comfort as to the alternative of a state run death house or private "death house" nursing home/facility. Sadly though, despite my best efforts we share unusual encounters with extraterrestrials and ghosts.

My aunt began seeing shadowy figures again around 8/10/2013. The first encounter was around 3:30am where she said something was in the room. I was up that night, in the kitchen cleaning, however I heard nothing from here room. The only thing that was odd was he unusual level of silence. Usually the crickets chirp all not on and off and their is some ambient noise. However, it was very very quiet with me making sounds. She claims that around that time a shadow figure was in the room with here. Then disappeared.
She didn't cry out, she just looked and it vanished when she noticed its presences. She was too tired to do anything... so she went back to sleep and told me the next day.

The second event happened today, a few hours ago. I am trying to hold up together and was cleaning up in the kitchen. She was moving from the restroom back to her room. I heard her start talking. At first I thought she was just fustrated with herself and just muttering about her age and condition. However I picked out the words "I am of no use to you so just go away". Once I heard that I ran to the room. Her conversation continued with something and she sad "you better not touch me". I asked if she was okay, but she instructed for me not to come in because something was "here". Which of course I rushed in.
I saw nothing. Yet she said that as she was backing out of the bathroom, someone was behind here. She saw there shadow on the wall. It was blocking the light. It was a thin and small humanoid, and it's shadow moved slightly as she was taking to it. She did not want to turn around. However, when  cam in the shadow on the wall and the being vanished. She seemed visibly upset and her voice shaky. She didn't want to talk about it, but she eventual gave in to my pestering and filled me in.

I tried to debunk the shadow as the TV tray and her water bottle did cast a slight shadow on the wall. Yet she said that wasn't it. She says it was something entirely different. The other odd occurrence is that while taking a bath a day ago during the afternoon, she said she say someone in the attic. It was mid afternoon, and she saw someone from he vent port. Again I tried to debunk this.....which means that she could not have seen someone normally as the fan rotating blocks site into the attic. With the light being on in the bathroom, likewise you cannot see clearly into the attic. The only way possible if there was illumination in the attic.... which at the time there was none. However stranger things have happened, and I know that there is movement up there that is not "pests" or the house settling.

Part 2 has probably cause....